Tuesday, July 31, 2007

Thor's Field Day

Photo by SnaggleTooth 2007
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The end of July brings me lots of thunder n lightning storms, just in time for wonderful Day Off. (Yesterday) I was up at 7a waiting for the storms to be far enough away to put the fans in the windows to pull out all the steamy hot then reverse to pull in the perfect 70 degrees F so I could get some zzz's finally.
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Then after struggling to awaken to begin my errand countdown, I heard a news weather alert for a severe cell heading this way. So instead of hanging out clothes n getting out I waited around for the weather to go by. News reported hail in the area I needed to head into, then it calmed down a bit before getting here. Oh well, just more to get done another before work day.
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Life seems so boring without my daily online adventures! I want my docs files back (whine~)
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The Wampanoags signed paper with the town of Middleborough, right up the road from here. They want to be given soveriegn land for a casino. Abount a third of the people at a huge meeting voted against it. It'd definately take the rural out of the whole zone.
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I don't like the idea of more people, traffic, n the resulting crime, either, but I'd be nice to find a new job just up the road without a commute to Beantown. It'd open up merchant, food service, n entertainment job opportunities.
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The native Wampanoags aren't yet recognized as a true tribe by the Fed Gov. So even this step could hold up the whole project for years or indefinately.
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Just because your great, great great, great, great, great, grand-dad was around here in the 1600's helping out the Pilgrims is no guarantee of recognition by the clueless authorities.
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We've got public native statues, a Wigwam Spiritualist center, annual Pow-Wows in the middle of Hyannis Center, ... after all, this was their summer camp village where I live, n now these people have decades of court battles already behind them trying to prove their bloodline's inheritance.
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I have a neighbor who can prove he's descended from an original, off the boat, pilgrim. RR even has some of the furniture they sat on, as well as papers linking him back. He gets respect.
Of course, word-of-mouth passed down for centuries doesn't count in court. Especially with all the mixed in blood-lines.
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Injustice n unfairness prevails.
Who gets the power n the bux?
Not the deserving...
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How can it be that I can work my butt off 50 hours a week, n still not be able to keep up with the rising prices of basic living?
The ruling rich people pick on the grandmas n families fighting to keep swimming away from the greedy rip-tide ready to slide away a lifetime of accomplished survival.
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American dream (my Ass). Luckily I learned to swim young.
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If I were "Thor" tossing lightning bolts around like lawn jarts, maybe I could change a few things around here...

Tuesday, July 24, 2007

Beach Scene

Photo by SnaggleTooth July 2007
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I'm still alive, although still borrowing puter time just a few minutes once per week or less-
It's pure hell being used to freewill online access then getting shut down. It's the same gut-knot feeling as having a car when it breaks down n you know the money isin't in the bank to repair it yet... (Knocking on wood).
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While getting these words out I'm writing with a pen out on the wooden deck, luckily. Haven't worked up much of a tan this summer yet, not many free sunny days while awake for me. This is the second for me.
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Last week I managed to drag myself out of bed in time for a swim just past high tide time at my fav res beach, so at least the season won't slip past me without my minimum yearly requirement.
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This week was cool n cloudy, the heat n good-timing tides will return during my work-week again.
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So many chores, so little time... My luxury, of lying here in the sun a few minutes was earned by getting up early (for me) n washing the laundry to hang out. I still need to go to the laundrymat before closing to get the big bed stuff done.
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I really hate the count-down I endure every day off due to everything closing just as I'm gearing up to my high-energy time of my day. It stinks having to sacrifice needed rest to get what's needed to live accomplished.
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So as I lie here a few minutes, catching a few sea-birds with one sea-shell, laundry drying, tanning, relaxing, n writing, I realize there's still seedlings out here which need relocating . This relaxing time is too limited with so much to do before the sun sets, visits, errrands, chores....
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Time is so limiting!
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I'm hurrying even as I rest, for the sunshine will no longer be available on the deck after 3:30 pm. Time dictates it's a low-tide day here. The Post Office closes at 4:30, the bakery outlet at 5, the laundrymat by 7. The sun goes down before 8:30, when I visit toddler J down the hill here before his bedtime, then get to type this into blogger. Sometimes I get some phone calls in before 10, n then everyone I know will be in sleepy-land getting ready for their day-lives tomorrow.
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Then the empty chasm of a long, dark night will drag on before me. Seeming so empty! Nowhere to go, No one to call, No one to read on Blogger!
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Practice music, do chores, make plans....
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"Life is what happens while you're making other plans...."
Thanks John Lennon-
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Time tells me to survive here in our society, I have to do much I don't want to do with my time. The older I get, the less of "just me" I get to do... Until I can catch-up with "needs," there's not much hope for "wants."
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"You can't always get what you want..."
Thanks Mick Jagger.
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There'll be a point where I'll find a week to step away from what others require of me. I know after some sleeping, I'll still work myself onto a frazzle with my art projects new n old, still unable to catch-up to where I want to be.
At least working on my art is truelly fun for me, n I do get to share it with other folks.
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My dreams of wants is endless. Luckily, dreams n wishes are free. Free of need, time, n work.
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Creation is also an act of discovery. Finding things you didn't realize you could do, or could want. To want what you don't even know of yet! (that's me)!
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More time, bux, energy, n a puter would really help now, tho- (Keep praying! I pray for you-)
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I bet what the Human race is up to lately is a nifty surprize for our Creator. A case of: "I can't believe I made them, now look what they're doing!"
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Thank you Creator for allowing us to be creators also, for the internet, computers, n Blogger too!
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Now I only need to invent a way thru my problems to a better way to spend my time- besides making others money with my sweat, (Well, at least it's been keeping me humble...)
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Now back to the world's program of limited time...

Monday, July 16, 2007

Day Off

Photo by SnaggleTooth 2007
Day Off is pure heaven...
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Since June 25, I have finally gotten only my second day off. Needless to say I'm so burnt out it's amazing I can do anything!
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I've been meaning to get back to the main beach for contrast pics to show you all how crowded it is here now, but the new film has to wait. I haven't even made it past my ankles into the sea water yet- Chores are so back-logged n I still need to look-up those old lottery numbers in case I can afford a new machine already n don't know it...
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I really miss checking in with all of you. It's really so lonely after work without your company!
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Who else has had to work the last 19 out of 20 days? (anyone)?

Monday, July 09, 2007

Yikes!

Photo by SnaggleTooth 2007


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Sometimes I'm profoundly psychic, although at the time it's not apparent to me until a bit later on, when I say "Wow!"-
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I'm alot more challenged than I dreamt I'd ever be-
I'd written I had to slow down the online activity involuntarily. The following day it happened...
After hours of freezing-up the machine again n again, a good twenty times -
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Involuntarily I'm without all my unwinding n fun stuff. I miss my pals! (Waaah!) Freecell, how I took you for granted. Where was that? No maps! Who? No research! Need to reorder? Yes, but C'est impossible!
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Just writing a plain text file, NO- reduced to a cramped pen-writing hand. Now I'll have so little precious time to puter-putter.
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Only one day off, after two weeks of straight work, filled with a kagillion chores, n only a couple of kind folks to lend me online moments so my email accounts don't get axed on me ( n I'm not awake)!
...Time to blog read is currently ZERO!
Hopefully it doesn't take too long to get a machine, any machine at home in working order to get back to all my fav things, WIP files, n people. (This seems like forever!) May this not take too long to get back to it all-
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Let this be a prophetic statement as well!