Beach Scene

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I'm still alive, although still borrowing puter time just a few minutes once per week or less-

It's pure hell being used to freewill online access then getting shut down. It's the same gut-knot feeling as having a car when it breaks down n you know the money isin't in the bank to repair it yet... (Knocking on wood).

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While getting these words out I'm writing with a pen out on the wooden deck, luckily. Haven't worked up much of a tan this summer yet, not many free sunny days while awake for me. This is the second for me.

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Last week I managed to drag myself out of bed in time for a swim just past high tide time at my fav res beach, so at least the season won't slip past me without my minimum yearly requirement.

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This week was cool n cloudy, the heat n good-timing tides will return during my work-week again.

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So many chores, so little time... My luxury, of lying here in the sun a few minutes was earned by getting up early (for me) n washing the laundry to hang out. I still need to go to the laundrymat before closing to get the big bed stuff done.

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I really hate the count-down I endure every day off due to everything closing just as I'm gearing up to my high-energy time of my day. It stinks having to sacrifice needed rest to get what's needed to live accomplished.

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So as I lie here a few minutes, catching a few sea-birds with one sea-shell, laundry drying, tanning, relaxing, n writing, I realize there's still seedlings out here which need relocating . This relaxing time is too limited with so much to do before the sun sets, visits, errrands, chores....

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Time is so limiting!

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I'm hurrying even as I rest, for the sunshine will no longer be available on the deck after 3:30 pm. Time dictates it's a low-tide day here. The Post Office closes at 4:30, the bakery outlet at 5, the laundrymat by 7. The sun goes down before 8:30, when I visit toddler J down the hill here before his bedtime, then get to type this into blogger. Sometimes I get some phone calls in before 10, n then everyone I know will be in sleepy-land getting ready for their day-lives tomorrow.

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Then the empty chasm of a long, dark night will drag on before me. Seeming so empty! Nowhere to go, No one to call, No one to read on Blogger!

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Practice music, do chores, make plans....

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"Life is what happens while you're making other plans...."

Thanks John Lennon-

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Time tells me to survive here in our society, I have to do much I don't want to do with my time. The older I get, the less of "just me" I get to do... Until I can catch-up with "needs," there's not much hope for "wants."

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"You can't always get what you want..."

Thanks Mick Jagger.

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There'll be a point where I'll find a week to step away from what others require of me. I know after some sleeping, I'll still work myself onto a frazzle with my art projects new n old, still unable to catch-up to where I want to be.

At least working on my art is truelly fun for me, n I do get to share it with other folks.

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My dreams of wants is endless. Luckily, dreams n wishes are free. Free of need, time, n work.

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Creation is also an act of discovery. Finding things you didn't realize you could do, or could want. To want what you don't even know of yet! (that's me)!

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More time, bux, energy, n a puter would really help now, tho- (Keep praying! I pray for you-)

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I bet what the Human race is up to lately is a nifty surprize for our Creator. A case of: "I can't believe I made them, now look what they're doing!"

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Thank you Creator for allowing us to be creators also, for the internet, computers, n Blogger too!

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Now I only need to invent a way thru my problems to a better way to spend my time- besides making others money with my sweat, (Well, at least it's been keeping me humble...)

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Now back to the world's program of limited time...