Older is Better

It's been a tough week for me so far, feeling pushed to the brink of walking out by folks at work, n fighting the urge to lose my cool.

Another paternal uncle passed away the other day. I hate that it looks like I probably can't make the funeral service 400 miles away.

There's only one remaining brother of my Dad, who passed away 26 years ago. I want to say that the living brother won, "The Last One Standing Award,"  but it must feel terrible to get that prize, n be witness to burying the rest. 

Most of my cousins are on a group family page on fb n that's how everyone found out. That's good n bad at the same time.

He had been ill, n in Hospice care since the summer. But no matter how long you are expecting it, or think you are accepting it already, you never seem to be prepared for the flood of over-whelming emotions that wash over you in waves when it happens with those you have known your entire life.

Even when you try to carry on with a normal day, it is tough to ignore  what your brain n heart are doing.   

I tend to bottle it up n do ok with distractions, but then one little thing will do me in emotionally, even when not connected to what is upsetting me. 

This pic was on the old PC n is a scan done back in November 2005 of found leaves. Thought I'd try my new button pushing on it to see what happens...

This year's leaves pale in comparison.

This crop from the original is what I used. On some without color change I increased saturation plus contrast only. I do miss the leaves from the old woods.