The cost of staying independent is high for me these days. I give up my sleep, family time, work on holidays, n have too much to accomplish on a back-log list. Without working my job from Hell I have no way to pay rent n stay in this area.
This week I have paid n then some. Still working on recovering. The OT in my pay will help me save more needed funds for short - term goals, but still I think winning the lottery jackpot is my best way to hurry n solve all my pressing problems. I'll be buying more mega Millions tickets today...
Sometimes I wonder why I go thru all this, n I think of just taking off somewhere else for awhile, but the truth is I like it here n want to stay. Most local folks here are friendly n kind as you do business around town. Seeing familiar faces in my travels is a perk I like in my daily life.
The more I bump into folks n hear of their trouble paying to live here, struggles with health issues, n fighting with the disability system denying them for barely survivable funds, the more I wish I could hit the jackpot n help them all pay to live for awhile.
Getting older the way life is these days can be a tough pill to swallow. I wish I could help take away some of my friend's stress, n mine as well.
I'd like to just kick back n enjoy some of this sweltering heat, but darn it's a low - tide day! Instead I'll be out walking in it no where near the beach.
Traffics been so low in blogland lately I wonder why I bother posting, but I like my familiar blogger folks too. I had to return my library dvds n go get lottery tix anyhow. I watched Jurassic Park IV known as "Jurassic World," n "The Kingdom of Heaven" directed by Ridley Scott with Orlando Bloom n Liam Neeson about the start of The Crusades. It was a very gory film with parts difficult to understand, I think, tho I liked the actors.
"Find the Cost of Freedom"
" from the "So Far" album is one of my favorite Crosby, Stills, Nash, n Young harmony tunes. I love the way Stephen Stills plays the guitar instrumental. If there's ever a memorial service for me I want them to play that track because I identify with it.